Stage 3. Full Immersion

I have posponed this one for months, in part I have been away from SL a little more and in part I did not want to talk much about this stage. Perhaps I can write since in some ways I must be doing much better than the sorry-lame person I used to be. Letting my life slip into this "game" so much.

However as its names implies, this stage its when the full deep addiction is taking over a player; in my case I gave way to some of the temptations available in SL, specially those with a deep soul searching attachement to another human being. Yes I had a special one in SL one of my best friends we got too close and ...one thing leads to another... but this is terrible because I have pledged not to do anything like that with my time in the game, that way I failed to one of the many rules my family and I had established for me here.

You see, after we -my family and me- saw how much time this was consuming and affecting me, we set some ground rules for me to play SL, I was totally ok with, one of them being "no affairs".

I used to use my time day dreaming about SL, and then come running to it to try the stuff I had envisioned. Few things were more important than friends, projects and games we were playing inside this virtual land.

Full immersion for me meant, letting the horse run free, living the SL with no
remorse, caution or control. I was a complete freak, lying to my family, an fantasy running free.

Now I enjoy calling SL a "game" and playing it like that, now many months after this happened I can see how much I had fallen for the fantasy of it. I tought stuff was so real, a total self-induced fantasy.

I hope this words that I write do not hurt the feelings of my virtual friends when they read it, new and old. I understand they looove their SL and my words might feel negative, a friend once told me, "you can catch more flies with honey than with vinegar", but this addiction thing has no sweet side.

I whish I had the time back I wasted in SL. This keeps me writing this now and then and reminding me of that time when I was fully immersen in that place.